Light at the end of the tunnel

I wasn't going to update tonight because I have been so tired from work, but I couldn't not share this God Calling with you all. 


It is the epitome of optimism, and it's for tomorrow (really today at 12 am). I love every word. Rejoice! 

Your Cross is YOU

Remember, you are only an instrument. Not yours to decide how or when or where you act. I plan all that. Make yourself very fit to do My work. All that hinders your activity must be cured.

Mine is the Cross on which the burdens of the world are laid.  How foolish is any one of My disciples who seeks to bear his own burdens, when there is only one place for them - My Cross.

It is like a weary man on a hot and dusty road, bearing a heavy load, when all plans have been made for its carriage.  The road, the scenery, flowers, beauty around - all are lost.

But, My children, you may think I did say, "Take up your cross daily, and follow Me."

Yes, but the cross given to each one of you is only a cross provided on which you can crucify the self of yours that hinders progress and Joy, and prevents the flow through your being of My invigorating Life and Spirit.

Listen to Me, love Me, joy in Me. Rejoice.

"And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall
keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."
Mark 8:34

God Calling- Spiritualism

All is Well with God

Wait before Me, gently breathing in My Spirit.

That Spirit which, if given a free entrance, and not barred out by self, will enable you to do the same works as I did, which being interpreted is, will enable Me to do the same works, and even greater than I did when on earth - through you.

Spiritualism is wrong. No man should ever be a medium for any spirit, other than Mine.

All you should know, all it is well for you to know of My Spirit-Kingdom, I will tell you when and how I see best. The limit is set by your own spiritual development.

Prayers are always answered in His way

Follow My injunctions in all things.

Peace - Peace - Peace.

"This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh." - Galatians 5:16

When you live for Him, the Prescence of sin is gone

Cherry Red

Look at that face

Ok so I have officially decided that I want to get a French Bulldog. I know they are small, and I am very partial to large dogs. However, at this point in my life I will not be living in a house with a large yard. It was between a Pug (only because of my best friend Amanda's pug Zoey that I adore) and the French Bulldog. I saw one today while I was working an event, and I absolutely just fell in love. I have to have one now. 


So, I'm officially in the market for the pup. I want a tiny one too, because it is oh so cute, and must come with me everywhere... Did I mention, it's French?! Oui! 

Ok so doing a 180 here... I am very sunburned from this event today. It was an art festival we sponsored and I just got scorched. 


Today was like... a new me. When you feel it, you feel it. You never know why God puts you in specific places at certain times. It is His plan, not mine. And as a child of God, I know I am blessed. Can not wait to see where it leads. He has my back, I can feel that too. Yes. 

How I feel inside

Originial "Oxygen"

URBAN ROMANCE

There has never been someone like you

Someone like you, more true than true

You know when I speak, I speak to you

Because in your eyes I see something new

Someone like you, more true than true

You show me a life I never knew

A life only God himself drew

Because in your eyes I feel something new

Someone like you, more true than true

A best friend, I hold no secrets from you

You look at me and know what I do

Because in your eyes I need something new

Someone like you, truer than true

Realer than real

You have my heart

To beg, borrow, or steal

But I know, Someone like you

Have held it with truth

Have grown it with love

Because We are BLESSED from above

God Calling- Seek Beauty

Tiger Lillies, my favorite flower

Draw Beauty from every flower and Joy from the song of the birds, and the color of the flowers.

Drink in the beauty of air and color.  I am with you. When I wanted to express a beautiful thought, I made a lovely flower. I have told you. Reflect.

When I want to express to man what I am - what my Father is - I strive to make a very beautiful character.

Think of yourselves as My expression of attributes, as a lovely flower is My expression of thought, and you will strive in all, in Spiritual beauty, in Thought - power, in Health, in clothing, to be as fit an expression for Me as you can.

Absorb Beauty. As soon as the beauty of a flower or a tree is impressed upon your soul it leaves an image there which reflects through your actions. Remember that no thought of sin and suffering, of the approaching scorn and Crucifixion, ever prevented My seeing the beauty of the flowers.

Look for beauty and joy in the world around. Look at a flower until its beauty becomes part of your very soul. It will be given back to the world again by you in the form of a smile or a loving word or a kind thought or a prayer.

Listen to a bird. Take the song as a message from My Father. Let it sink into your soul. That too will be given back to the world in ways I have said. Laugh more, laugh often. Love more. I am with you. I am your Lord.

"The heavens declare the glory of God; and 

the firmament sheweth his handiwork." - Psalm 19:1

The Drive Home Feeling

...There is someone out there & he knows he has my heart...

Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you could still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I've relied on you
Like yellow does on blue

And, you're my good feeling.
I'm kneeling inside her room
She paints me blue
And you are my reason
For breathing.
Inside her room, she paints me blue again

Atlanta started raining on me
And teenage love was underground
Tonight I break the surface
Atlanta started raining on me
But no young girl was claiming me
And naming me
And destiny gets nervous and

And you're my good feeling.
I'm kneeling inside her room
She paints blue and
You are my reason
For breathing.
Inside her room she paints me blue again.

My Favorite Love Story

Atlanta started raining on me
on me
Atlanta started raining on me
on me 

New day

I've been finding myself in better spirits these days. It's almost as if I've had this cloud over me for the past 5 months, which is seemingly a long time to me, and now the cloud is slowly dissipating into the blue skies that lay behind it. Like a dull star now shining bright in the midnight sky. Yeah, it's probably a combo of a few factors but either way I'd like to just take this moment to make mention of this transitional phase I feel I'm about to embark on.


1. I'm starting to care less what others think of me. Which in turn, definitely molds how I act and respond accordingly towards people. 


2. I start laughing at simple things- like my dog Buster chasing a pack of ducks out of our yard, so proud he just "protected" our home from them, as if they were a mafia of some sort. lol.


3. Its been made really apparent to me that my listening skills, to other people, suck. So, I'm making it a point to try and be a better friend that way.


4. I've had this urge to improve on my Spanish, and to perfect my French. If this job really does pay as well as expected, I definitely plan on taking me and a friend to the French countryside, Paris, and Barcelona. Its just how it has to be.


5. My family relationships are improving slowly. Do I trust my family, yet? Not even close, well, my middle sister I trust, but that does not mean I can't at least try to enjoy their company whenever they are around or on a call. Its just a respect thing I'm gonna try out...


6. My hobbies.... I've been finding myself WANTING to write more, even if it is meandering thoughts of nothingness in my life. It's still an outlet. Also, acting & singing. I really missed that creative outlet I had back in high school and college. I loved acting on stage and singing american theater. 


7. And my job. Which really is a blessing, I know it. It will make alot of my dreams (and others in my life) come true and hopefully I can start being an independent, successful adult on my own...and hopefully take care of my Father in his old age. 

Anyways.... That's just the recent things that have been going on with my life. I love my sister Ashley for being pretty much my only friend I've had. She's a real good egg as we say here lol. I just wish there wasn't like 10 people living in my house. That sorta gives me anxiety, lol. 

March 8 - Heaven Life

The Joy of the Spring shall be yours in full measure. Revel in the earth's joy. Do not you think that Nature is weary, too, of her long months of travail? There will come back a wonderful joy, if you share in her joy now.

Nature is the embodied Spirit of My Thoughts of beauty for this world. Treat her as such - as truly My servant and messenger, as any saint who has ever lived. To realize this will bring to you both new life-joy. Share her joys and travails, and great blessings will be yours.

This is all-important, because it is not only believing certain things about Me that helps and heals, but knowing Me, sensing My Presence in a flower, My message in its beauty and perfume.

You can truly live a life not of earth - a heaven-life here and now. Joy - Joy - Joy.

"The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of
birds is come, and the voice of the turtle
 is heard in our land." - Song of Solomon 2:12

Old friends, new conversations

Everyone knows its nice to catch up with old friends. For me, it's always a blessing. You learn so much about yourself in retrospect than you do just looking forward. Catching up with an old friend can arise many feelings, such as an urge to keep up with a blog, or a feeling that you didn't quite feel before, but is now there. Like I said, it's a blessing nonetheless. What do you do when your past conflicts with your future? If you think it does at all... If you think at all...
I look at the world around me. The people in it. The cultures we create. It really gets my mind going about coupling, and how compatability truly does matter. There are so many options, or should I say choices, out there picking the right one (or the most right one) is really like finding a needle in a haystack. If you can find someone you accept for who they are, genuinely, I'd say you're pretty lucky. These days we have girls trying so hard to be the "one" to guys who do not even think past their lunches. It's refreshing to a girl to know there are SOME guys out there who do feel, who feel the feeling of love itself, not the agony of love. It'd be even more refreshing if guys were more respectful to women, and romanced them as if chivalry were not dead.

Some, surprisingly, do feel more than they think.

It's nice to catch up with friends.

This is just a test

A test to see how long you will read my rambling thoughts as i pretened to want to sleep, wondering where the world is going, i mean stuff in the middle east is pretty bad, maybe as bad as America's addiction to watching people do normal things on TV, or not as bad as the mexican cartels breaking our boarders. Yeah, the world seems hectic. Somehow I feel ok. So now is the time I start to wonder where my ex boyfriend is. Then I stop. Because every girl out there know that's a path down self-sabotaging....done that enough. (____LONG PAUSE____) So yeah, totally just took a minute going psycho inside myself thinking of all the places he could be, then i give myself a reality check and remembered he is a good guy and i need to trust him more, and i do. Next thought, i watch the first 48 alot, i can't believe how many of the murders occurr a few cities from me. I went to a church group tonight and had a good time meeting new people who live here and have the same faith as i do. But to be honest I really miss my ex, what girl doesn't? Well, I know a bunch do stupid things to forget an ex. But I don't want to forget him. He was a good guy. If anything I know he wants to forget he met me. Blah such a confusing time. I guess to conclude that thought, at least he knows I love him. See, my thoughts go from A to Ex from Ex to B from B back to Ex then Ex moved on to C- C is happy I am that I live in south florida. Always sunny. Ok, Darryl suddenly attacked someone on the first 48.... I'm gonna go watch this. Kudos to anyone who read the random blog. Please keep comments (doubt i'll get any) POSITIVE :) thank you.

God Calling: Feb 22- YOU MUST TRUST-

"you must trust Me wholly. This lesson has to be learnt. You shall be helped, you shall be led, guided, continually. The children of Israel would long before have entered the Promised Land -- only their doubts and fears continually drove them back into the wilderness. Remember always, doubts delay. Are you trusting all to Me or not?

I have told you how to live and you must do it. My children, I love you. Trust My tender Love. It will never fail you, but you must learn not to fail it.

Oh! could you see, you would understand. You have much to learn in turning out fear and being at peace. All your doubts arrest My work. You must not doubt. I died to save you from sin and doubt and worry. You must believe in Me absolutely."

"He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust."

 Psalm 91:4